Purpose

When you are single, you do single people things. You wake up when you want to or when your schedule demands and go about your single day and do single people activities. You call people, set up dates and go to meet other single people. Wen engaging in relationships, you either have one of two ultimate goals. You either are striving to or not to get married to one whom you are currently seeing.

When you are married and do married people things, your life and mid are preoccupied with doing things for the betterment of the unit, the family. You wake up to the one you are married to every morning and go to work and go on with their activities of daily living. I recently read a snippet of what it's like. It's a very romantic view of what  married life is like. Happiness

I would think many people would think my life to very complex and bogged down with details. To say that I am over exposed to childhood problems would be an understatement. Many times with smaller children, simply humoring them long enough to simply write this blog entry is a major undertaking and demand on my time away from them. I would think anyone with more than two children can understand that.

One hour later after averting a major bathtub clog.....

Where was I? Right, the total polar opposite dynamic. It's a mental preparedness that you do every morning when I one that is married prepares for. The day is frock with minor emergencies and whether you are prepared or not, you are the one they look to to fix the major disruptions in their lives. God forbid anything goes wrong in your life. Then everything gets fucked up. @smiles to myself@.

 I accepted these things when I got married and had children. And if you are mentally strong enough, you can hang in there. You can be "The Man". You can reap the rewards of their love and admiration because without it, why else get up in the morning? For another day of single life? For another conquest, for another day of little if any directed energy ex pension, for no purpose other than to breathe in, breathe out and repeat? This is why God or what ever put me here. I am sure of it. Laura and the kids were my purpose and without them, I would be little more than the man I described as breathing in, breathing out and repeating.

07/23/12

I have re read this blog entry and have had a lighter change of heart since them. I have the same problems most men with a family has, except the difference is medication. I have a lighter, more life centered and family centered view on this subject. I am a happier man and a more life and family centered individual. My work is the same and my family life has not changed. In fact, now there is less money coming in and my efforts to make some have since prompted me to write more and look for avenues to sell my literary efforts in a market that is more profitable than Blogger.




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